To keep it simple, I am not thrilled with the change. I have found my hardest switch has been managing my time. I am now taking three advanced placement classes; AP Biology, AP Macroeconomics, and AP Language and Composition (This class), I have found my time has significantly dwindled.
I find it more tiring and stressful than I was a couple weeks ago with finals! I understand that I am the only one to blame for my anxiety and lack of time, however, despite me being overloading right now, I recognize that this will all benefit me in the long run, and that is one of the few things that keeps me going. The classes I take and do well in now will reflect into my college experience, which I am hoping to make the best out of.
Unfortunately, right now, that is not the case and I find the busy schedule I have affected everything else in my life. On top of school, I am playing sports which are consuming a large amount of time and I am gearing up for college trips, volunteering and work. My hope is that all this will be worth it in the long run.
It all makes me wonder why we look so much into the future, but at the same time we fear change so much that we will do anything to make it perfect to the point where we ruin the present; like somehow we will it into existence when really our future is ever changing like a leaf in the wind, so why wouldn’t we enjoy the ride and maybe occasionally use a fan to direct it?
Sometimes I feel like I am the only person my age that is planning this far ahead, turning on that fan per say, and struggling now to relax later. I would love to hear if any of you are feeling the same, or if not I am curious to hear your planning strategy for the future.
I definitely feel the same way! I'm taking AP Lang, Psych, and Chem this year, and the workload has been unlike anything I've ever done before. I sit at the table for around 3-4 hours every night just doing homework! I can't say I regret it though: I feel like this year has been great so far because of how I am finally learning what I want to learn for my career path.
ReplyDeleteI definitely feel the same! The second semester lays get so chaotic for me with track, AP exams, SAT/ACT stuff, etc. I feel like I've gotten so caught up in the cycle of constantly having to work or get something done that I find it impossible to relax, even when I might have time to. The biggest thing that keep me going is also my future plans an goals that I wan to achieve.
ReplyDeleteIt's definitely a struggle sometimes. With an increased work load and constantly trying to figure out my schedule, it can become overwhelming. Constantly working without rest does take it's toll on me sometimes, but the thing that keeps me going forward is knowing that it is all for the better. I can only hope that putting all this work now will let me succeed in the future.
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